Saturday, March 13, 2010
Life as I know it, so far.
Alright I know there are going to be some people who will be a little uneasy about me writing this but I don't care. My friends will support me like friends should and anyone else can just stop reading it. I'm just going to brief my life and blah blah in this first entry. (Technically 2nd)
So hi, my name is Spade Viviano. I have no brothers or sisters, that would make me an only child. I'm done high school and I am currently going to school and I am studying literature. I hope to become a writer but I have to get over the fear of people reading what I have to say... But what can be more personal than a blog. I know it won't be fiercely popular so I think this is a good platform to start from.
When I was younger I didnt get along with a lot of children. Throughout elementary school I was mean, it would be safe to say I was some sort of bully. I'm not going to play the victim card and say I was going it because someone else was bothering me.. Nope I was just a jerk because I thought it was funny. It wasn't until I was in grade six that I witnessed someone else get bullied and from that point of view I saw how hurtful it was. I thought "Wow I was a big jerk". From that moment on I stopped being such an ass. No I am not making this up for some reason that really bothered me. So even if I haven't apologized to you if I was a jerk, I am sorry. For the record I was young and dumb.
Grade 8 I started to get a lot if attention for my looks, no I'm not bragging I am just saying. I found this insanely weird. Most of my friends at this point were guys because of my behavior earlier in my life girls felt like I would be like a bad friend. Before, yes I would have at this point, No I would have been a great friend. (At least I think so). As some of my friends started making passes at me I stopped talking to them. Me never having had a close girlfriend, I didn't know how to act around them. But my best friend Conner, never changed. ( If you are wondering, yes, Conner is still my best friend). Girls started to become more interested in me and I gained attention and I let them in because I didn't know better. I don't regret it because I made a couple of really great friends from this, Abby and Casey. I love them. But other girls just used me to get to guys. It was bad, but I learned from it.
Shady behavior has been following me for a while, I trust to easy. It sucks Conner always tells me not to but I cant help it. I am a sucker for words and it well... Sucks. I have been in love and been totally crushed and it again, sucks.
Back when I was 16 I got my first car, and I crashed it. No let me rephrase that, I mangled it. I managed to put Conner in a Coma and leave a huge scar on my shoulder blade. I know it sounds bad but I love it. It reminds me that I am not invincible and I can infact hurt myself, and others. Conner forgave me and not when ever we drive together he takes the wheel, most of the time. (LOL) I am way better at driving now, don't worry.
I don't really like to drink, but I love to go out and I do not do drugs. It's sick and unattractive. Smoking. Ew. Smoking is the biggest turn off ever. You don't look cool and you smell. It's a real shame if you are pretty nice looking and you pull out a cig, goooooodbye. Anyways I am getting kinda tired of talking and I think this is pretty much all you need to know because there will be more to come. Oh and I write stories for youtube. Mostly they come from past experience with a little spice thrown in. Yes I know I add "Jemi" or "Nelena" This is because that is was catches most attention and all I want is people to read my stuff.
You can leave me a comment on here.
Ask me any questions you want here (They can be anonymous) www.formspring.me/spadeviviano
Add me on twitter here http://www.twitter.com/spadeviviano
This is my youtube page check it out! http://www.youtube.com/user/Beautiifuls0ul
Thanks for reading and feel free to talk to me or add me on any of those outlets!